i should have climbed these steps at age fourteen
when i would have understood your walls
i should have known what would happen
to minds and shoulders and streaky glass
and we should have made then
all the promises we’re trying
to burn into each other’s palms today, and
we should have known then
which of these things would never leave
and we should have slept on it
and never tried so hard
in which case there would have been no need
and we should have kissed
and given up on those who didn’t want us to
and we should have ignored the myth of
the moulin rouge, and stopped waiting and made romance
and we should have stopped the tears
and not allowed those things that we allowed
to live so large in our shoes
and we should have gone even further and
given up on the shoes
when our feet started to hurt, we should have
given each other the dirt
and tried all the things we secretly wanted
to try. we should not have waited for so many years
to laugh at those silly fears
2 comments:
you speak true words.
but i do feel like we learned so much from all that. maybe it would have been better to grow up different, to do more things, to be less idealistic and more exploratative (wc??!?!) but we didn't. and we do all still have the shoes. not all of it was a mistake. in fact, very little of it was.
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